I’m too weak to be your cure.
Release. Receive.
My fingers are heavy. They are dead weight of all the words pushing at my prints, aching to be set free, but not knowing how. You can see similes and soliloquies skirting to the edge, waiting for a release, and upon failure, soaking back into my bloodstream and circulating again. I am a cycle no child can ever learn how to ride.
These words- they are more than twenty-six scribbles splattered between white spaces. In the tilt and turn of each jagged curve, and every straight line, rests a story, a person, an entity. Breathing, deep and slow in the womb of our ink, sleeping, stirring in the lull of its own beauty. And every time one makes it to the page, diffuses out of our pores and into the abyss of white and light waiting to embrace its fibers, we lose a part of ourselves. And the miracle of it is, that by shedding that skin, by letting go of a piece of our soul; we become more whole. And sometimes, the magic woven into its threads, carries it upward to the eyes of someone dangling off the other edge of the world, and seeps into their existence.
These things- these scribbles and spaces and sentences. They can save you. And if there’s anything holier, I haven’t found it yet. This cycle inside of me- it is something I will never regret.
You & Me
We used to dance—-
better than
the way palm tree leaves
beautifully sway
to the whispers
of the wind;
better than
the way our fingers
teasingly play tango
with the keys
of magnificent pianos;
better than
the way the bristles
of an artist’s paint brush
gracefully perform ballet
on the stage
of a canvas board.We have our moves
etched
into the walls
of our foot bones.
& never will her prints
be able
to match
mine.
(She’ll never
be me, love;
she’ll never
be me.)
— Charles Bukowski
I remember
the night when
you engraved
your promises
on my back
with your finger tips
& watered them
to grow into
a vineyard
wrapped around
my ribs.
Yesterday,
you broke
your promises
to bits & pieces-
traumatizing my
(v)
(e)
(r)
(t)
(e)
(b)
(r)
(a)
(e)But
your vineyard—-
still continues to breathe;
feeding
my dry lungs
back
to
life.
(You’ll always be a part of me-
growing,
breathing,
stinging.)










